installing the zipper

i don't know where i've been for the last 5 days. i think about updating all the time but i just never know what to say.

it makes me sad to neglect this space so badly, but i am the only one who really worries about it i'm sure. i know that i'm not honest here, and most of the time i don't feel i should be putting down what i want to put down. it's become very unsatisfying, indeed.

but i will plug on until i can't take it anymore. at least you have been kind enough to not take me off your buddy list.

anyway.. things have been the same around here. we've all been very tired and lazy and worried.

tomorrow is the hub's surgery and though we haven't talked much about it, i know it's starting to weigh on us both.

we saw the doctor last week, and he painted a much more serious picture than i had in my head. don't get me wrong, it's surgery, and that's serious enough, but it seems complicated, and not exactly routine, you know.

i have faith that he'll be just fine, that he'll be home before we know it, and will force himself to recover faster than most people. god wouldn't let me out of being nursemaid to a whiny man, would he? heh.

ummmm that sounded worse than i meant.

he'll be fine.

of course he will, i'd be lost without him. and so he's not going anywhere. we have a deal, god and i. sort of. it's more like me demanding and him being the strong silent type. but i think he gets it.

anyway. i guess there isn't much more to say about that. unless of course any of you think to slip him into your nightly prayers. that would be nice. even though he is a heathen. hehe

i suppose i should go. i'll check in tomorrow when they kick me out for visiting hours.

be good cukes. tell someone you love them today.

-pops

seeds - bloom