over and done with

i hated to leave the hub at the hospital tonight, poor thing laying there rambling and twitching- without me. i'm sure he'll be fine, but i miss him and i'm worrying anyway.

by all accounts the surgery went well, and i think the hub looks worse than he actually feels. he's attached to more tubes and hoses than you could shake a stick at, but seems to be in good spirits.

within five minutes of getting to his room he was ready to go home, have a hot dog and a cigarette. he couldn't have been cuter i tell you.

i'm so glad that he's ok. no matter how selfish and whiny i get about how things can be sometimes, i know i'd be lost without him.

he has given me so many gifts, so many blessings, i could never pay him back. not only did he give me the perfect little devil child, but he gives me his pride,and hope. and best of all, his love. a love i'm not sure i deserve all the time, a love that seems to be unconditional.

he could find someone better, a nice little welsh girl maybe, but i'm glad he chose me. i'm pretty lucky to find someone i love, yeah, but to find someone who returns it, in his own way, is amazing.

i wish i were there, i feel anxious and nervous here alone. it's too quiet. the bed will seem too big and cold tonight. it doesn't feel right, it doesn't feel freeing to be without him.

i can't wait for him to get home.

anyway, choo choo honey, i thank god that he heard the prayers and kept you at my side.

*sigh*

-pops

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